I finally get to a good place where I’m comfortable with not having a baby at this very moment and someone has to come along and ruin that. Remind me of the pain I feel deep down in the thoufht of not veing able to carry a child. It kills me on the inside. Makes me feel like shit. Tell me I’m fat so I can’t have children. Why? Why do that to me? I was fine with waiting. Now all I feel is pain. The pain of losint my child and the pain of possibly not being ablebto have another one
I have decided that I am going to lose weight BY HOWEVER I HAVE TO. Even If I have to starve myself…. Its the only way Ill ever have a family….
Things in my life tend to fall as they should. And in time, my life will be exactly how I imagined. Just gotta let it come on its own.
Dont want to get my hopes up…. This is such bad timing… but who knows maybe with bad timing comes things Ive always wanted… I surely hope so.
Once again…its the same bull shit. Im so tired of feeling like this and the more I try not to the worse I become. I just cant stop my thoughts. I wish I could…. I dont think this obsession I have is healthy. all I can do is keep hoping and keep praying.
She crawled into the bed as she did every night, which was just big enough to comfortably fit both her and her nightmares. Cuddled up close to the silhouette embedded on the opposite side, she touched the imprint, whispering painful secrets under her breathe as hushed cries crawled through her pillows. That is where she lay; drifting further away from the real world and into her safe haven of tragic self loathing and grief.
Heres the story; The name is Kassie Star. Coffee is my drug of choice. :) I'm 19. Ima wild child, a party animal, a sex kitten? :) I love stars, hence the name. I also love music, poetry, love, & all things pretty. <3 Im nobodys type & never will be. Im unique. I am a really hyper, fun loving girl. I try to make the most out of life because the fearful never live & the brave die trying. <3 As for now my story is still being written but I will tell you this... Someday I will have my fairytale ending. <3